When I think about you now, I’m not sad anymore at least not the way I used to be. Its different its more like a quiet nostalgia, a sense of warmth mix with a little sting. I don’t feel the weight of missing you the way I once did. I used to replay everything in my head, wishing things had turned out differently, but now its just memories. And while they’re bittersweet they’re also good. I don’t regret them I don’t regret us, it strange isn’t it. How someone can have such an impact on your life and yet you can reach a point where thinking about them doesn’t hurt anymore. Its like I’ve accepted that things are what they are and I’m okay with it, I’m note holding on to what we could have been but I’m also not angry about what we aren’t. so, no I’m not sad, I just think about you sometimes, smile a little and move on with my day because in the end I learned from us and I’m grateful for those moments even if they’re in the past now.
aku masih disini,masih berdiri di tempat yang sama. aku tak benar benar pergi darimu,aku hanya menepi dan membiarkan mu bahagia dengan jalan yang kau pilih. aku selalu menjagamu dalam diam, melihatmu dari kejauhan dan merindukanmu dalam sepi. kembalilah jika kau mau tak usah terburu-buru. 13 Desember 2021
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