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Capek

"Aku capek."
"Aku capek, mau istirahat dulu."

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"Memangnya kamu kerja apa?"
"Kamu memangnya melakukan apa hari ini?"

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Kawanku, capek bukan melulu soal terlalu banyak bekerja. Atau pun terlalu banyak beraktifitas. Capek yang dirasakan seseorang bisa dikarenakan karena terlalu sering berusaha berteriak meminta tolong tapi tidak ada yang mendengar.

Capek juga bisa dirasakan seseorang karena terlalu lama menarik urat senyuman, walau sebenarnya tak sedikitpun ia rasakan setitik kebahagiaan di dalam jiwanya.

Atau yang lebih parah; ia capek karena sudah terlalu banyak berekspektasi terhadap manusia yang ia pikir akan mengerti, namun lagi-lagi hanya kehilangan yang ia dapatkan.

Kita tak pernah tahu apa yang sedang dilalui seseorang, sejauh mana ia telah melangkah, dan berapa kali ia sudah mencoba. Jika sesekali ia mengeluh, bolehkah kalian memeluk? Atau setidaknya mengulurkan tangan?

Jadi, aku capek.
Apa boleh aku berhenti?

Cerita akhir di 2018 :)

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